Dear bloggers;
  Its been a while I didnt get time to tell a story. People underestimated me. Why bad things get on me always? But as long as I keep on praying to Allah. He knew everything. Just complicatedly. Because its ALLAH who welcoming me to the world.
   Few weeks had been passed, and I was getting ill lately. From an illegal fever to the sound vibration that affect my toot. And currently my tooth is aching. So do my heart. It crashed apart. The thing is, people keep asking me "WHY DOES IT HARDS FOR YOU TO TRUST PEOPLE". And I said "WHY DOES ITS SO HARD TO KEEP A SECRET?", and it keeps on repeating for few times & few days after an arguement with the classmates. First of all, I didnt meant to cause an argued, Just its happened to be. To me its like it is not fair. I was used to wipe the window on tuesday but they kept telling me to do it again on monday or wednesday. Its just happened to be.
  Seriously, if I could say this truthfully to their face I would cause I am not the old Nabilah. I'm a new one. I'm renewable. And they're couldn't get enough with their mouth. On because I didn't used to have a lots of gangs in the class so they can't even stop babbling all day long about me. Truthfully it hurts a meter deep inside. But I should keep it to myself. ALLAH always listen. So just talk and PRAY a lot to ALLAH. To me ALLAH is the only one that I could put my faith on & I can count on.
     People's hurt is just too much. And few days after that, I fight with my ex. A big fight you know? And it is super damn FUCKING like I was used to hate to see his face. If I could just escape or get away from where he is, it would be good. Because the thing is, he's currently just point me on whatever he was told by his gangs. I hate it. Cause I ain't that kind of person people's talks about.
      I am used to HATERS because I was been hated since FORM 1. And rather than being a supa dupa diva for people to hate, I would just keep my unsatisfied heart to myself. I'd never told them, how hurt I am.

And hearing about the tsunami at Japan. At first I was like this-can't-be and I kept on thinking and thinking. How was if it managed to get us what I mean is ME, to the tsunami, and it would be good, cause people didn't even care about me, tossed me away after being used, its like I'm a plastic bag. I didnt just brag to people whatever I want, Its happened to be to  keep it to myslef since people can't even being trusted.